|| pissed off
A lot of emotions are going threw right now. Who are my real friends? The ones I have plans with, and then go make other plans. Or the ones I try to stay in touch with but It just doesn't work? It hurts right now to think that I was taken for granted like this... after I would go out of my way to pick this person up.... and they blow me off.
Oh well it just makes you think, If there not going to be a good friend to you, start making good friends. All this talking behind peoples backs is complete bullshit. Why can't people just be up front. Its like...... HA I HATE HER SOOOO MUCH, now give her an invitation to my b-day party??????? Ok w/e. I know its so childish but... it still continuously goes on. And at this moment I'm really thinking that I don't need these people, and what great friends I really do have. Thats the good thing about figuring out your knew friends, you get what there really like pretty quickly, and then the ones who just front to be your friend, well once a bullshiter always a bullshiter. Fuck that.. as jess would say.
Enough of that... Im slacking heavily in school, but still doing pretty good. I know I could do better but whats the use, its the last marking period. Rita's is a pretty crappy place to work, and I got an aplication for Hollywood Tans. I hope that it works out.. but oh well if it doens't. DMB concert in 2 months and 4 days, and I'm going with my real friends.
The Strokes are really good. Im listening to there CD rite now.. sorry Steffffen. Im so tired I have the feeling in my eyes like I have been crying for an hour even though I haven't at all. But Im still pissed off. Girls are the biggest backstabers at times.. and guys never even want to mess with that crap... there so much better. They could careless if some other dude was talking trash on them. Its just not like that for girls, and it won't ever be. I guess like Stacy said, Girls will always talk behind girls backs. Its a fact of human nature. Well guess what, Its not. Its a fact if your true to who your supposed to be true with. Since I can't type anymore.... heres Micheals away message.... and some DMB would be nice.. or course..
"I am no superman not at all , but i have no answers, for you , i am no hero aw dont you , but i do know one thing, where you are is where i belong ,Where you go, i do know is where i belong, Where are you goin? With your beautiful face looking down , dont hide away, you are like an ocean, that i can't see but i can smell and the sound of your waves comin down" .......dmb